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The Negative Voices Inside Your Teenagers Head

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This is what a teen might say about his or her self-talk:

I’m mad. I don’t know why. Sometimes I wake up mad, other days it creeps up me. I don’t like it. It doesn’t feel good. I wish I wasn’t so mad but I am. I can’t help it.

Everyday is a prison, trapped inside this changing body, doing the same day over and over. My whole life is made up of things I HAVE to do, not things I WANT to do. Tests, quizzes, reading assignments, papers, group projects. I spend the entire day with people I am forced to be with. Teenagers who feel just as messed up as me.

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Sometimes my feelings get hurt at school. By teachers, deans, counselors, but mostly by other students. I don’t tell you because I’m ashamed to feel hurt. I don’t want you to know how hurt I feel all the time.

My whole life has become “I don’t want to...” I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to go to go to bed, I don’t want to go to school. I don’t want to...I don’t want to...I don’t want to.

I can’t think of a single thing that I want to do -- except sleep. It’s the only time I’m not stressing, the only time I’m not worried, the only time I’m not upset.

Sometimes I hide in my room and binge watch NetFlix, YouTube or mindless videos over and over because I can’t stand to be with my own thoughts. I’m distracting myself from me. Does that sound crazy?

Yes, I know that my room is a mess. I like it that way. It looks how I feel inside. And please don’t ask me what’s wrong, because I don’t know. I don’t know where these feelings came from.

I know that you’re mad at me. I can’t blame you. I stopped talking to you. Sometimes I say such mean things to you, horrible things. I blame you, curse at you, push you away.

Sometimes I break things because I feel broken inside.

It wasn’t always feel this way. When I look at old photos of me in elementary school, I see a little kid who was so happy all the time. A little kid who loved to dance and sing, who loved to be silly, who didn’t care what people thought.

I feel like that little kid is dead.

Listen, I’m going to tell you something that’s hard to say. Please listen because I really mean it.

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Don’t give up on me. Don’t hate me back. I need you to be stronger than me. I need you to be my parent, even though I say I don’t want one. I need you to be more patient than I can be, more understanding, more accepting.

Even when I am yelling at you, even when I tell you that I hate you, I still need you to love me.

This must sound crazy, but if I could tell you how to help me, this is what I would say:

1. Give Me Space

Don’t come in my room, corner me or make demands. I don’t have any answers. When you push me or yell at me, I feel worse. I need to be alone.I need space.

2. Don’t Yell at Me

The noise in my head is so loud sometimes that I can barely hear my thoughts. I can’t stand it. When you yell, I feel worse about myself. I feel unloved. I feel like I am your biggest disappointment. When you get really mad at me, I wonder if it would have been better if I wasn’t born.

3. Take My Electronics Away

I can’t put my phone down, I try but I just can’t. I know it’s devouring all my time but I can’t help myself. Social media is my drug, I can’t stop checking it. I need your help. I need you to set limits on technology. Please. I will fight you but it’s what I need. Don't try to reason with me -- just do it.

4. Bring Me Someplace Quiet

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I say I don’t want anything to do with you. But if you could bring me somewhere quiet. Somewhere we could walk together and not argue. Somewhere I can feel the sun and listen to the wind in the trees. Somewhere I can breath and forget about everything that’s bothering me. I think I would like that. Even if we don’t speak, I will feel comforted.

5. Stop Spoiling Me

Stop giving me everything I want. The more you give me, the more I resent you. I want to earn things. It helps me feel grown up. I want to learn how to save money, spend money, share money. I’m never going to learn that if you keep giving it to me. I hate being dependent on you, please help me become independent.

6. Find Me Someone to Talk to

I need someone to look up to who isn’t you. I need an adult to admire, someone I want to be like. A person who believes in me, pushes me, and understands me. A mentor, a counselor, a therapist...anyone who can give me hope when I have too little for myself.

7. Tell Me That You Love me

I pretend not to care. But I really need to hear you say the words, “I love you.” Because right now, I don’t love me. Even though I’m making your life hell, I still need to feel loved. Especially by you.

I guess that’s it. I know that being a parent is really hard. Sometimes you probably wonder why you did it. But I’ll get better. I promise. I’ll get older and we’ll enjoy each other again. Until then, understand that I appreciate you.

I may not say it often, but still I love you.

 

About Sean Grover

Sean Grover, LCSW, is an psychotherapist, speaker and author with 25 years experience working with adults and children. He maintains one of the largest group therapy practices in the U.S. and leads over 300 groups a year in his practice, in addition to monthly workshops in clinics, medical centers, youth organizations, and schools.

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